how do I feel

-the same
-rash on forehead still present but not as intense
-still pretty tired
-did not get emotional when I lost my keys
-remaining calmer with my daughter
-had a disappointment with the catholic church and I may search for a new church

ending of treatment

I took my last four pills today and my last needle a week ago-48 weeks of treatment for the 2nd time since 2005. How do I feel today? Right now I feel extemely fatigued and just going about my day to day routine. Tomorrow I am taking the grand daughters to the bowling alley. My sister is coming this way to go to aunty bunny's memorial April 14th.
can't stay on line very long.

On ResiliencyThe following snip was found here.www.omh.state.ny.us/omhweb/savinglives/volume2/resilience.html

Extreme Resilience

What makes a difference in determining whether someone succumbs to a threat or survives? Who lives and who dies? A recent analysis of "deep survival" examined the attitudes and behaviors exhibited by individuals caught in life and death situations in a range of adverse environments. (Gonzales: 2003) The study revealed 12 lessons for prevailing against extreme odds. Such conditions can produce what could be termed "extreme resilience", the ability to think and behave successfully in the clutch of mortal danger.

1. Perceive, believe (look, see, believe). Extreme survivors rapidly grasp the reality of their situation and acknowledge that everything good or bad emanates from within. Their life is ultimately in their grasp. They move quickly through denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance very quickly.

2. Stay calm (use humor, use fear to focus). Survivors use fear, turn it into anger, and it motivates them. They understand at a deep level about being cool and are ever on guard against the mutiny of too much emotion. They keep their sense of humor and keep calm.

3. Think/analyze/plan. Survivors quickly organize, set up routines, and institute discipline. They push away thoughts that their situation is hopeless. They act with the expectation of success.

4. Take correct, decisive action. Survivors are able to transform thought into action: take risks to save themselves and others and break down large jobs into small, manageable tasks.

5. Celebrate your successes (take joy in completing tasks). Survivors take great joy from even the smallest successes. Important to sustain motivation, this attitude also prevents the descent into hopelessness.

6. Count your successes (take joy in completing tasks). This is how survivors become rescuers instead of victims. There is always someone else they are helping more than themselves, even if that someone is not present.

7. Play (wing, play mind games, recite poetry, count anything). Using deeper powers of intellect can help to stimulate, calm, and entertain the mind. It can also lead to a novel solution to the problem at hand.

8. See the beauty (remember: it's a vision quest). The appreciation of beauty can relieve stress and create strong motivations, as well as help to take in new information more effectively.

9. Believe that you will succeed (develop a deep conviction that you will live.) Survivors consolidate their personalities and fix their determination; they admonish themselves to make no more mistakes, to be very careful and to do their very best. They become convinced that they will prevail if they do these things.

10. Surrender (let go of your fear of dying). Survivors manage pain well. They practise resignation without giving up. It is survival by surrender.

viral load

It is always great news when your viral load is considered undetectable. That did not happen with me after my first 48 week treatment. Now I have had a 2nd 48 week treatment and in six months I will have results of the detectability of the virus. However I already have cirrhosis so I have to be watched quite closely.

(FROM AN ARTICLE ON THE INTERNET)
Dr. Pearlman: Unlike HIV, HCV viral copies do not directly affect a patient's prognosis and how fast disease is progressing in the liver. Remember, we are measuring blood levels, not what is happening in liver cells. HIV viral load does have a lot to do with quicker progression to AIDS. But HCV viral load does not tell you how fast hepatitis is progressing.

I paid human resources the dept owed to them, my overdrafts, my lawyer and quite a big chunk to VISA. DEIDRE GOT HER MUCH AWAITED BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION. We stayed at the Canad Inn and a small group of friends came over. I rented two children theme rooms.I was able to relax. I went to the hot tub for a while. Deidre and her friends really had great fun at the pool. The next big thing is to buy a decent grocery order.
My sister is back from Mexico. Deidre may travel to Nova Scotia to see her dad this summer.
How do I feel-about the same. The stress of very small monthly income now being replaced with a reasonable income is thereby reduced.
Blood work was taken today for my hep c viral recognition and my dr. will tell me the results on April 9th.However viral load is not an indication of the severity of the liver damage.

GRATITUDE

The check from the insurance company arrived but has to sit in the bank for five days and then most of it is already spoken for owing to debts and payments. Thankyou God for the wisdom of the people who helped to get these benefits including the first person G.W. who got my employer to fill out all the necessary forms for my employment history. Also TH who wrote anecdotal notes about myself.
I am not on the computer a huge amount these days as I feel it is a struggle to stay focused. I have only until March 18th for my final medication-wow. Two years of teatment was quite challenging.