Sunday, December 28, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Anyway the good news if you look at it that way is that GWL approved my disability benefits past the two year own occupation into the any occupation stage. That puts my mind at rest after
several weeks of anxiety and some nightmares.
A horrible fight with my daughter has really bothered me a great deal.
Friday, November 14, 2008
more testing
Monday, November 10, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
How am I feeling
My appetite has improved.
GWL is reviewing my claim because it will move into stage 2 beyond your own occupation to any occupation but within my range of background and education and pay 50% of my gross monthly wages pre-disability( if hypothetically I could return to work) so Dr. Kaita is sending in necessary test results and I will get copies. My Canada Life has been renewed.My cpp disability continues.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Beyond the Epidemics.
Friday, September 19, 2008
ct scan
When I and other people with chronic health conditions feel discouraged about not working because of our disability I feel encouraged by this information I found on the internet. It is far too complicated to go back to work when I have other related conditions as well namely, vasculitis, cryoglobulenimia,(did I spell that right), a liver fistula-we think, and dry skin, and fatigue and lack of concentration.
“the test of total disability is satisfied when the circumstances are such that a reasonable man would recognize that he should not engage in certain activity even though he literally is not physically unable to do so. In other words, total disability does not mean absolute physical inability to transact any kind of business pertaining to one’s occupation, but rather there is a total disability if the insured’s injuries are such that common care and prudence require him to desist from his business or occupation in order to effectuate a cure; hence, if the condition of the insured is such that in order to affect a cure or prolongation of life
common care and prudence will require that he ceases work, he is totally disabled within the meaning of health or accident insurance policies.”
p.s. I am searching for the name of the judge who said this.THIS IS FROM SUCHAROV V. PAUL REVERE - SUPREME COURT OF CANADA
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Thursday, August 21, 2008
more testing
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Seeing Dr. Kaita
Purple
The richness of red
The royalty of blue
I see it on the close fitting gloves of the lab technician
I see it faintly expressed on the his professional collar
I see it brightly papering around the fuse bottle
I see a light touch of purple on the tip of the needle container releasing my blood into the capsule
My blood is going on its journey for its platelet test
My lacy pattern on my skin reveals tiny purple capillaries stretching spider like along my legs
The blood test shouts out the tale of cryoglobulins
I say, “Cry,” and glob away from me
I will not view the purple stains and shapes bruising my legs
And what of the faded purple spleen and the magenta colored liver?
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Saturday, August 2, 2008
appointment
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Friday, July 11, 2008
WHAT???
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
cry, ra, mri
blueness revisited
Instead of painting I have been writing lately. At least I am experiencing a reflective and creative definition of my time. I bought a cheap journal at a Dollar Store. I am writing anecdotes and poetry and writing down a document of my expenses.
My sister should be home from Ireland and Malta.
Monday, June 30, 2008
virus news
I thought very clearly in my mind before Sally called me that the virus was no longer about because my feet are no longer swelling.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
not nice ditto double double
the whole thing is pretty scary.
One thing I know-if I ever had any doubts about receiving disability cheques those doubts have been eradicated.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
NOT NICE
Thursday, June 12, 2008
How Am I feeling today
-large, at first they are bright red, then they become purple and brown and fade away
-I wanted to see my dermatologist Dr. Silver right away but I am scheduled to see him on Monday
-the marks may or may not disappear by then
-could be cryo or pupura
-did the virus return?
-or did the virus ever disappear
-it is all very stressful
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Arteriovenous (AV) fistula: What is it?
What is an arteriovenous fistula?
- Maureen / Pennsylvania
Mayo Clinic hypertension specialist Sheldon Sheps, M.D., and colleagues answer select questions from readers.
Answer
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A-V fistula
An arteriovenous (AV) fistula is an abnormal passageway between an artery and a vein. Although it most often occurs in the legs or arms, an AV fistula can occur anywhere in the body, including the brain. An AV fistula may also be created surgically to provide access for hemodialysis in people with end-stage kidney failure.
Normally, your blood flows from arteries through capillaries and back to your heart in veins. When an AV fistula is present, blood flows directly from an artery into a vein, bypassing the capillaries. If the volume of diverted blood flow is large, tissues downstream receive less blood supply. In addition, heart failure may occur due to the increased volume of blood returned to the heart.
A doctor may suspect an AV fistula by an abnormal sound (bruit) heard over the artery with a stethoscope. The sound is due to turbulent blood flow between the artery and the vein. Small fistulas following injury sometimes close without treatment. But larger fistulas usually require treatment, which may include:
§ Endovascular coils inserted into the fistula to close it
§ Surgery to block the abnormal channel
§ Carotid bruit: What causes it?
mri needed
I REMEMBER HEARING A SWISHING SOUND DURING MY ULTRASOUND .that sound is called a bruit.
Monday, June 9, 2008
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
HOW AM I FEELING
-diarreah about ten times in the morning-ugly and disgusting
-I also have another appointment with my dermatologist re. follow up on him giving me a blood test
-somewhat mysterious
-have to run
Thursday, May 29, 2008
How am I feeling?
-slept walked to my daughter's room and began talking to her and woke up
-much better appetite
-always wake up too earley-5:22 or 6:30 A.M.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
How am I feeling?
-lose my laundry card or I think I have lost it and I haven't
-think my keys are in the laundry room but they are not
-forget what t.v. show I am seeing when I leave the room
-feeling frustrated when these things happen several times per week
-will see Dr. Kaita on June 9th for a post treatment assesment apointment
-good news-my feet no longer swelling
Friday, May 16, 2008
Thursday, May 15, 2008
how do I feel
-put on six pounds
-have been tested for cryoglobulinimia
-soreness in legs and arms
-fell on the floor of the bus yesterday when a pedestrian jay walked in front of a bus
and the driver had to stop suddenly
-o.k. but a scary experience
-rash on my face is not liver related
Thursday, May 8, 2008
-lots of bumps
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
how am I feeling
-soreness in legs when I am on my feet alot
-red spots on legs have mostly faded except for the tiny ones
-irritating rash on forehead which has been with me over a year
-some nightmares
-always wake up at 6:30 A.M, on the dot every morning
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Thursday, May 1, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Red stuff
Saturday, April 19, 2008
how I am feeling these days
We had a very nice family time at aunty Bunny's memorial. On our side of the family Lyn, David and Deidre came. Harvey Dann came. Paul and Nancy came.All the others would be Otto connections. Paul Otto said a very thoughtful eulogy-very well expressed and very defining of Bunny's generosity, kindness, effeciency, a bit of humour added. Lyn said a few words as well.
My gwl cheques are arriving in a timely manner- very good news.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
grandma and kayden
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
DIET AND HEPATITIS C
WHAT IS THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN DIET AND HEPATITIS C ?
Hepatitis C is a virus that infects the liver. Up to 85% of people exposed to this virus develop chronic liver disease. Progression to cirrhosis { irreversible scarring of the liver } occurs in about 25% of individuals. While not as yet totally defined, many factors influence the rate of disease progression. Diet likely plays an important role in this process, as all foods and beverages that we ingest must pass through the liver to be metabolized.
ALCOHOL AND HEPATITIS C
Alcohol is a potent toxin to the liver. Excessive intake can lead to cirrhosis and its complications, including liver cancer. Heavy drinkers are not the only individuals at risk for liver disease, as damage can occur in even some moderate "social drinkers". The hepatitis C virus has frequently been isolated from patients with alcoholic liver disease. In fact, these patients have been found to have a higher incidence of severe liver damage, cirrhosis, and a decreased lifespan, when compared to individuals without the virus. It is suggested that the combination of alcohol and hepatitis C accelerates the progression of liver disease. The consensus statement concerning management of hepatitis C released March 1997 from the National Institutes of Health, further warned about the dangers of excessive alcohol use in patients with hepatitis C. These recommendations stressed limitation of alcohol use to no more than one drink per day. Therefore, patients with hepatitis C would be unwise to drink alcohol in excess, and total avoidance of all alcohol intake is recommended .
IRON AND HEPATITIS C
The liver plays an important role in the metabolism of iron since it is the primary organ in the body that stores this metal. The average American diet contains about 10- 20 mg of iron. Only about 10% of this iron is eliminated from the body. Patients with chronic
hepatitis C sometimes have difficulty excreting iron from the body. This can result in an
overload of iron in the liver, blood, and other organs. Excess iron can be very damaging to the liver. Studies suggest that high iron levels reduce the response rate of patients with hepatitis C to interferon. Thus, patients with chronic hepatitis C whose serum iron level is elevated, or who have cirrhosis, should avoid taking iron supplementation. In addition, one should restrict the amounts of iron rich foods in their diet, such as red meats, liver, and cereals fortified with iron, and should avoid cooking with iron coated utensils.
FAT AND HEPATITIS C
Overweight individuals are often found to have abnormalities related to the liver . Examination of liver specimens may display a spectrum of abnormalities ranging from fatty deposits in the liver,[ steatosis], to fatty inflammation [ fatty hepatitis], or even fatty cirrhosis. This condition is called Nonalcoholic Steatohepatitis [ NASH ]. It occurs predominantly in middle-aged obese women with diabetes mellitus and hypertriglyceridemia [excess fat in the blood]. However, this disease may also occur in individuals of normal weight, without other associated diseases, and can also affect men. The presence of fat in the liver can cause the liver to become enlarged and may result in elevations in liver related blood work { liver function tests [LFT's] }. The addition of NASH in patients with hepatitis C may worsen liver related blood work and physical exam. This may confuse interpretation of results and diagnosis. Controlled studies need to be done to determine if the addition of this disease worsens the prognosis of patients with underlying chronic hepatitis C. In overweight patients with a fatty liver who subsequently lose weight, liver- related abnormalities improve. Therefore, patients with chronic hepatitis C are advised to maintain a normal weight. For persons who are overweight, it is crucial to start a prudent exercise routine and a low fat, well balanced, weight reducing diet. In diabetic patients, a sugar- restricted diet should be adhered to. A low cholesterol diet should be followed in those with hypertriglyceridemia. In individuals with NASH who are of normal weight, a low fat diet may be advantageous. It is essential that patients consult with their physician prior to the commencement of any dietary or exercise program.
PROTEIN AND HEPATITIS C
Adequate protein intake is important to build and maintain muscle mass and to assist in healing and repair. Protein intake must be adjusted to one's body weight. Approximately 0.8 grams of protein per kilogram of body weight is recommended in the diet each day. Therefore, protein intake should be between about 60 - 120 grams a day in patients with hepatitis C, unless a complication of cirrhosis known as encephalopathy occurs. Encephalopathy is an altered mental status. The exact cause is not fully understood and is probably multifactorial. It has been shown that restriction of the diet of animal protein and maintaining a total vegetarian diet, helps reverse this condition and improve mental capacity.
SODIUM AND HEPATITIS C
Advanced scarring of the liver [ cirrhosis ] may lead to an abnormal accumulation of fluid in the abdomen referred to as ascites. Patients with hepatitis C who have ascites must be on sodium [salt] restricted diets. Every gram of sodium consumed results in the accumulation of 200 ml of fluid. The lower the salt content in the diet, the better this excessive fluid accumulation is controlled. While often difficult, sodium intake should be restricted to 1000mg each day, and preferably to 500 mg per day. One must become an careful shopper, diligently reading all food labels. It is often surprising to discover which foods are high in sodium.
For example, one ounce of corn flakes contains 350 mg of sodium; one ounce of grated parmesan cheese - 528mg of sodium; one cup of chicken noodle soup - 1108 mg of sodium; and one teaspoon of table salt - 2,325 mg of sodium!
Most fast food restaurants are a no no. Meats, especially red meats, are high in sodium content, and adherence to a vegetarian diet may often become necessary. Patients with chronic hepatitis C without ascites, are advised not to overindulge in salt intake, although their restrictions need not be as severe.
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Saturday, April 5, 2008
HOW DO I FEEL TODAY
My sister is coming on April 13th. So I am looking forward to seeing a group of relatives coming for my aunt's memorial service.
Monday, March 24, 2008
how do I feel
-rash on forehead still present but not as intense
-still pretty tired
-did not get emotional when I lost my keys
-remaining calmer with my daughter
-had a disappointment with the catholic church and I may search for a new church
Friday, March 21, 2008
ending of treatment
can't stay on line very long.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Extreme Resilience
What makes a difference in determining whether someone succumbs to a threat or survives? Who lives and who dies? A recent analysis of "deep survival" examined the attitudes and behaviors exhibited by individuals caught in life and death situations in a range of adverse environments. (Gonzales: 2003) The study revealed 12 lessons for prevailing against extreme odds. Such conditions can produce what could be termed "extreme resilience", the ability to think and behave successfully in the clutch of mortal danger.
1. Perceive, believe (look, see, believe). Extreme survivors rapidly grasp the reality of their situation and acknowledge that everything good or bad emanates from within. Their life is ultimately in their grasp. They move quickly through denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance very quickly.
2. Stay calm (use humor, use fear to focus). Survivors use fear, turn it into anger, and it motivates them. They understand at a deep level about being cool and are ever on guard against the mutiny of too much emotion. They keep their sense of humor and keep calm.
3. Think/analyze/plan. Survivors quickly organize, set up routines, and institute discipline. They push away thoughts that their situation is hopeless. They act with the expectation of success.
4. Take correct, decisive action. Survivors are able to transform thought into action: take risks to save themselves and others and break down large jobs into small, manageable tasks.
5. Celebrate your successes (take joy in completing tasks). Survivors take great joy from even the smallest successes. Important to sustain motivation, this attitude also prevents the descent into hopelessness.
6. Count your successes (take joy in completing tasks). This is how survivors become rescuers instead of victims. There is always someone else they are helping more than themselves, even if that someone is not present.
7. Play (wing, play mind games, recite poetry, count anything). Using deeper powers of intellect can help to stimulate, calm, and entertain the mind. It can also lead to a novel solution to the problem at hand.
8. See the beauty (remember: it's a vision quest). The appreciation of beauty can relieve stress and create strong motivations, as well as help to take in new information more effectively.
9. Believe that you will succeed (develop a deep conviction that you will live.) Survivors consolidate their personalities and fix their determination; they admonish themselves to make no more mistakes, to be very careful and to do their very best. They become convinced that they will prevail if they do these things.
10. Surrender (let go of your fear of dying). Survivors manage pain well. They practise resignation without giving up. It is survival by surrender.
viral load
(FROM AN ARTICLE ON THE INTERNET)
Dr. Pearlman: Unlike HIV, HCV viral copies do not directly affect a patient's prognosis and how fast disease is progressing in the liver. Remember, we are measuring blood levels, not what is happening in liver cells. HIV viral load does have a lot to do with quicker progression to AIDS. But HCV viral load does not tell you how fast hepatitis is progressing.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
My sister is back from Mexico. Deidre may travel to Nova Scotia to see her dad this summer.
How do I feel-about the same. The stress of very small monthly income now being replaced with a reasonable income is thereby reduced.
Blood work was taken today for my hep c viral recognition and my dr. will tell me the results on April 9th.However viral load is not an indication of the severity of the liver damage.
Sunday, March 2, 2008
GRATITUDE
I am not on the computer a huge amount these days as I feel it is a struggle to stay focused. I have only until March 18th for my final medication-wow. Two years of teatment was quite challenging.
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
when I do not smile
DR. KELLY KAITA
His hepatology research focuses on viral hepatitis. Much of his work is dedicated to clinical trials involving the use of new anti-viral agents that can be used to treat viral hepatitis. The unit is also responsible for understanding the natural history of viral hepatitis in Manitoba, continuing medical education for health care givers, patient education, and public health. The main goal is to establish in Manitoba the first Canadian unit focusing on all aspects of viral hepatitis. He is also involved in several international clinical trials looking for better and more effective therapies for viral hepatitis. His unit is also responsible to oversee the management of patient's affected with viral hepatitis in Manitoba.
Dr. Kaita graduated from the University of Manitoba in 1989 and then enroled in a residency in internal medicine. This was followed with a fellowship in hepatology here and at the University of Western Ontario. For the past three years he has held a geographic full-time appointment.
my dr. and nurses
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
interview
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
potential good news
Monday, January 14, 2008
-when I went to the interview the one man asked how soon I could pack
-I received a travel cheque in a timely manner to get there asap
-my vp met me at the airport right away and he drove me over the ice road
-the highschool staff was cordial and friendly and supportive
-having luch in the Home Ec. room every day was a highlight
-my junior high students gave me a hard time and then did a turn around and did very well for the final exam
-I left at the end of June and decided to come back in November and they hired me very quickly
-The Director of Education, Mr. Nelson Mckay was always a very gentle and good hearted person who treated his staff with respect and courtesy
-I have fond memories of all my students, Grade 4, Grade 2, Junior High, Senior High,
-the young students were full of life and energy and enthusiasm
- the older students were quiet and maybe too passive at times but there was always the one or two who would speak up and say what was on their mind
- the students had so many challenges because of tragedies in the community and they rallied and stood firm with each other
-other teachers were a delight to be around
-it was a pleasure to watch and listen and observe the variety of characters who came up north and no doubt I was at the top of the list
-I have to repeat once again how the highschool staff had so much fun giving me a fun time with their good natured teasing and joking and even though I did not understand the native language they always included me and I enjoyed the flow and movement of the language and I could read alot of body language
-they always used enough English when I was around so I did not feel that I was left out of the loop
-one time when I had an emotional breakthrough the school counsellor and another staff member took me aside and gave me prayers and moral support
-hey, the pay cheques never bounced
-I grew as a teacher just at that crucial time of my life when something on the horizon was going to take me away from a job I loved
-I loved the northern landscape, and the sound of the crunch on the snowy ice road, the hoar frost gently hanging on the mighty spruce and pine trees, the amazing sunrises and sunsets, the flow of the water as it moved through the seasons surrounding my island home from water to ice and then the inevitalble return to the same and yet subtly different condition and circumstance
-the beauty and horror of nature that gives birth to both joy and depression
-how I miss the north